pretty good right now. Seems strange to say that. But, I am feeling pretty content. I have to admit too, I keep contemplating stopping treatments. I keep thinking lately that we are Happy. We are a great couple and we have a wonderful relationship. But, I think it just might be a lingering sense of failure from the last cycle and not wanting to put us through that again so I am trying to content myself with where/how/what we are. And I love "us".
But, as I have said before, we will continue, we will persevere. I don't know what the outcome will be, but we will travel this path and find out together.
That being said, I went and had my blood taken to start my chromosome testing on Tuesday. I went on Friday to get it done, but I was "too late". The blood that is taken has a certain "shelf-life" for the tests that need to be done. So I was upset when I left on Friday - firstly because when I got there she asked me which test I was there for, my pregnancy test or the chromosome test. That was awesome. Then being told that I couldn't do the test that day and that I need to come back. Both were equivalent to an unhappy me.
Moving on with the weekend.....a friend of ours is getting married next Saturday. Last Friday was her bachelorette party (part 1). She had it at a friend's house - food, games and a passion party. That was pretty fun. Saturday we went to a beer festival, that was fun too. Then on Saturday night we had bachelorette party. We started w/dinner then did some barhopping.
The only part that wasn't fun of the weekend? The cold that I got. I laid in bed all day on Sunday and Monday.
This weekend was pretty nice too. Hung out with A on Friday night, ran some errands, got a beta fish (:-), unecessary, but hey. His name is Bob), then went out to dinner with a friend, then we went out for drinks and to listen to music. Crashed at her friends house and then napped when I got home (only slept about 3 hours last night *blush*). Just made dinner, BBQ chicken pizza. And I am heading to bed soon, so tired!
I am rereading this post and I am bored with it, lol, but it's all I got right now. Brain is not really functioning at full capacity from the lack of sleep. I am on my way to rectify that soon though.
More, and hopefully more interesting, later!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
And.....finally heard from my doc
Yesterday I finally "grew some balls" and decided that if I didn't call my RE I wouldn't be hearing from him anytime soon. So I called and left a message. I had two questions, first and foremost, do you want me to go and get the bloodwork done (and if so, what is the hold-up??), and I have a rash where I was getting the PIO shots, I figured you should know about this, and what can I do for it?
So after calling, I waited...........and waited..................and waited, and ended up going home kind of pissed off because I hadn't heard anything (which really is no suprise, because it seems like ANYTIME I need an answer to something it either takes forever or multiple phone calls, but I digresss). We ran some errands last night, looked at a new condo and I went to bed early because my head was killing me.
This morning I was at work and I was contemplating calling the office again, when lo and behold, the phone rings and it was my RE. He said that he does indeed want me to get my karyotyping done, and if mine is normal (and maybe even if I have issues), A will go and have his done.
I also asked him about different protocols and stuff, and it was kinda funny because he almost chastised me for knowing about different protocols. I guess not so much about knowing about them, but for using the internet. He seems to think it's a good thing, but at the same time, it makes you walk away with more questions than answers. I agree to a certain extent, but how do you learn w/out questions? And isn't an informed patient better than an uninformed patient? Doctors aren't gods, they don't know everything, so blindly believing in them is not the way either.
Anyway, tomorrow I am going to have my blood draw and get started on this testing. It's funny because I was unsure if I was ready to move on, but now that we are "doing something" I am upset that the testing can take up to 4 weeks. So that could be two months before we are ready to move on/have some answers.
I know I am still young, but I had a plan. I wanted kids "young" so I could enjoy them and know my grandkids. But who doesn't have a plan, right? Why am I special? I am learning. It makes you have to be more flexible, I guess.
So after calling, I waited...........and waited..................and waited, and ended up going home kind of pissed off because I hadn't heard anything (which really is no suprise, because it seems like ANYTIME I need an answer to something it either takes forever or multiple phone calls, but I digresss). We ran some errands last night, looked at a new condo and I went to bed early because my head was killing me.
This morning I was at work and I was contemplating calling the office again, when lo and behold, the phone rings and it was my RE. He said that he does indeed want me to get my karyotyping done, and if mine is normal (and maybe even if I have issues), A will go and have his done.
I also asked him about different protocols and stuff, and it was kinda funny because he almost chastised me for knowing about different protocols. I guess not so much about knowing about them, but for using the internet. He seems to think it's a good thing, but at the same time, it makes you walk away with more questions than answers. I agree to a certain extent, but how do you learn w/out questions? And isn't an informed patient better than an uninformed patient? Doctors aren't gods, they don't know everything, so blindly believing in them is not the way either.
Anyway, tomorrow I am going to have my blood draw and get started on this testing. It's funny because I was unsure if I was ready to move on, but now that we are "doing something" I am upset that the testing can take up to 4 weeks. So that could be two months before we are ready to move on/have some answers.
I know I am still young, but I had a plan. I wanted kids "young" so I could enjoy them and know my grandkids. But who doesn't have a plan, right? Why am I special? I am learning. It makes you have to be more flexible, I guess.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Men are from Mars.................
I think it's a men thing. They just don't understand the feelings and emotions that women experience.
I hate that I feel the need to write this, but it helps to get these things out of my system.
So yesterday and today have been a little difficult. Yesterday was my beta day, and as we all obviously know, that didn't happen. Today a friend of mine, after waiting about 36 hours for it, got her beta results back. It was negative. It breaks my heart that infertility IS. That it is experienced, that it causes pain, that it leaves the most giving, caring, wonderful women, empty.
Anyway, on to my real point. I LOVE my dad. More than anything. My parents mean the world to me and we are very close. They have and are extremely supportive of A and I as we go through this battle with IF. But sometimes I wish my dad wouldn't say the things he does.
I think it's hard because when I call them I expect sympathy, not frankness. I called my mom when I got home from work today. We talk about every other day. And I cried to her, told her that yesterday was difficult for me and that I was really sad about my friend and her results and how unfair infertility is. She understands me and my sometimes irrational emotions.
After we finished talking she asked if I wanted to say hi to my dad. I did and I cried to him a bit. And he told me that yes, things are hard, but you have to look at the positives and move forward. That people face difficult things everyday. Yes, they do, but people aren't his daughter, and people aren't the ones calling and crying to him because they are sad that they lost their 5 chances at a baby. He made me feel, and I am even sure in the rational part of my brain that he didn't mean it this way, that he probably just didn't know exactly what to say, that I should be over this and moving on and focusing on the future instead of dwelling on the sadness of the past.
I know in my head that this is what I should be doing. I am mad at myself for still being upset. I feel like I should be able to pick up and move on. That it's time. But........I can't yet. I keep wanting to call the RE, well actually I want them to call me like they said they would, ugh; but I can't. I get my phone out at lunch and hope that I have a missed call from them and say to myself if I don't, that I am going to call them and get this moving. And I don't have a missed call, and I don't call them. I am just treading water right now, not moving forward or back. Just waiting, but I don't know for what.
I hate that I feel the need to write this, but it helps to get these things out of my system.
So yesterday and today have been a little difficult. Yesterday was my beta day, and as we all obviously know, that didn't happen. Today a friend of mine, after waiting about 36 hours for it, got her beta results back. It was negative. It breaks my heart that infertility IS. That it is experienced, that it causes pain, that it leaves the most giving, caring, wonderful women, empty.
Anyway, on to my real point. I LOVE my dad. More than anything. My parents mean the world to me and we are very close. They have and are extremely supportive of A and I as we go through this battle with IF. But sometimes I wish my dad wouldn't say the things he does.
I think it's hard because when I call them I expect sympathy, not frankness. I called my mom when I got home from work today. We talk about every other day. And I cried to her, told her that yesterday was difficult for me and that I was really sad about my friend and her results and how unfair infertility is. She understands me and my sometimes irrational emotions.
After we finished talking she asked if I wanted to say hi to my dad. I did and I cried to him a bit. And he told me that yes, things are hard, but you have to look at the positives and move forward. That people face difficult things everyday. Yes, they do, but people aren't his daughter, and people aren't the ones calling and crying to him because they are sad that they lost their 5 chances at a baby. He made me feel, and I am even sure in the rational part of my brain that he didn't mean it this way, that he probably just didn't know exactly what to say, that I should be over this and moving on and focusing on the future instead of dwelling on the sadness of the past.
I know in my head that this is what I should be doing. I am mad at myself for still being upset. I feel like I should be able to pick up and move on. That it's time. But........I can't yet. I keep wanting to call the RE, well actually I want them to call me like they said they would, ugh; but I can't. I get my phone out at lunch and hope that I have a missed call from them and say to myself if I don't, that I am going to call them and get this moving. And I don't have a missed call, and I don't call them. I am just treading water right now, not moving forward or back. Just waiting, but I don't know for what.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Tomorrow would be beta
So I am still having trouble coping with our loss. I have lots of really good times and then other times I fall into this like, dark abyss, and I can't stop thinking about it and it makes me really sad. I am having trouble thinking about tomorrow. It was supposed to be the day that we got our good news, the day that we found out that we were pregnant. But not anymore.
I feel cheated. We didn't even get a chance, we weren't even able to give our babies a chance. It breaks my heart.
I still feel at odds with moving forward. But I can't imagine not moving forward either. So I told myself that if I don't hear from the RE's office by lunch tomorrow, I am going to call them and get this thing moving. We can at least get the blood tests going. And we are going to try our damndest this month to get pregnant on our own. I don't have a lot of faith that it will happen, but we can try, it's always fun to try.
Otherwise, nothing else much new. I went into the school district office on our anniversary, Thursday, and took their admin asst test. If I am selected for interviewing for this position, that will be on Friday, the 22nd. I am hoping that I get selected. I am also applying for two other jobs that they have up on their website. Cross your fingers for me. I need something positive to happen.
For our anniversary, A got me the new Rasc.all Fl.atts cd. It's pretty good. I got him a new video game and an accessory gun for the W.ii. We went for a hike yesterday and then out for dinner to celebrate. It was nice, we chatted a lot about school dances and other high school moments while we were out. Laughed a lot. I love him so very much, I am blessed to have been given this chance to make a life with him and I am loving every minute of it.
Anyway, just wanted to update and kinda vent a little. Be back soon...........
I feel cheated. We didn't even get a chance, we weren't even able to give our babies a chance. It breaks my heart.
I still feel at odds with moving forward. But I can't imagine not moving forward either. So I told myself that if I don't hear from the RE's office by lunch tomorrow, I am going to call them and get this thing moving. We can at least get the blood tests going. And we are going to try our damndest this month to get pregnant on our own. I don't have a lot of faith that it will happen, but we can try, it's always fun to try.
Otherwise, nothing else much new. I went into the school district office on our anniversary, Thursday, and took their admin asst test. If I am selected for interviewing for this position, that will be on Friday, the 22nd. I am hoping that I get selected. I am also applying for two other jobs that they have up on their website. Cross your fingers for me. I need something positive to happen.
For our anniversary, A got me the new Rasc.all Fl.atts cd. It's pretty good. I got him a new video game and an accessory gun for the W.ii. We went for a hike yesterday and then out for dinner to celebrate. It was nice, we chatted a lot about school dances and other high school moments while we were out. Laughed a lot. I love him so very much, I am blessed to have been given this chance to make a life with him and I am loving every minute of it.
Anyway, just wanted to update and kinda vent a little. Be back soon...........
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
So.....yeah
I just don't know what to talk about right now. How sad is that? IVF was ruling my life and without it in the picture currently, I feel like I lack anything interesting to talk about.
Job, still the same....crappy. Check
Husband, still awesome. Check
I did get an email from one of the places that I applied asking me to come in a take a preliminary skills test in order to receive an interview. Kind of annoyed me that I have to do ANOTHER step before I can even meet with someone, but I want to get out of my current job so badly... I will do just about anything (within reason obviously!).
So that is Thursday morning. I have to call them and confirm tomorrow though. You had to call or email to reserve a spot and I emailed right away, but I haven't heard back, so I guess I will call just to be on the safe side.
I am completely unhappy at my current job though. I sit there and silently fume and get annoyed all day long. And sometimes nothing has to happen to make me feel that way. It's just from being there and doing the same thing, day in and day out.
A friend of mine/coworker might be pregnant. She was telling me this morning that she has been feeling nauseous a lot lately, not sleeping well and other things. She just started on the pill about 1 week ago, but didn't take a pregnancy test beforehand and hadn't had a period in a while. So I mentioned it to her. She stopped and got a test and told me that it looked positive so she picked up another and is going to take it tomorrow morning. She also had a doctors appt tomorrow, so if the second one is positive I told her that she should ask for a blood test. She was sweet though, she told me that if she was she would feel bad. I told her not to worry, I would be happy for her. I would never wish what we go through on someone else. So, we will see, she told me that she will let me know tomorrow what she finds out.
That's about it though. Pretty boring all in all.
Our 4th anniversary is Thursday. We are going to go out to a local Italian restaurant this upcoming weekend to celebrate. I am looking forward to it and to spending many more years with A. It's flown by!
Night for now
Job, still the same....crappy. Check
Husband, still awesome. Check
I did get an email from one of the places that I applied asking me to come in a take a preliminary skills test in order to receive an interview. Kind of annoyed me that I have to do ANOTHER step before I can even meet with someone, but I want to get out of my current job so badly... I will do just about anything (within reason obviously!).
So that is Thursday morning. I have to call them and confirm tomorrow though. You had to call or email to reserve a spot and I emailed right away, but I haven't heard back, so I guess I will call just to be on the safe side.
I am completely unhappy at my current job though. I sit there and silently fume and get annoyed all day long. And sometimes nothing has to happen to make me feel that way. It's just from being there and doing the same thing, day in and day out.
A friend of mine/coworker might be pregnant. She was telling me this morning that she has been feeling nauseous a lot lately, not sleeping well and other things. She just started on the pill about 1 week ago, but didn't take a pregnancy test beforehand and hadn't had a period in a while. So I mentioned it to her. She stopped and got a test and told me that it looked positive so she picked up another and is going to take it tomorrow morning. She also had a doctors appt tomorrow, so if the second one is positive I told her that she should ask for a blood test. She was sweet though, she told me that if she was she would feel bad. I told her not to worry, I would be happy for her. I would never wish what we go through on someone else. So, we will see, she told me that she will let me know tomorrow what she finds out.
That's about it though. Pretty boring all in all.
Our 4th anniversary is Thursday. We are going to go out to a local Italian restaurant this upcoming weekend to celebrate. I am looking forward to it and to spending many more years with A. It's flown by!
Night for now
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Update from Doc
I realized, after I already posted about our weekend, that I haven't updated with any info from our RE.
He called later on Thursday afternoon to talk with us about the loss. At this point, he has no idea why this happened. He said it could be three reasons - bad luck, chromosomal issues, or a third that he didn't want to get into and I am guessing is just plain bad eggs.
So we are supposed to get our blood karyotyping done. Me first, if mine is fine, then A. I am supposed to hear from the office on when they want me to get that done.
I want to do it as soon as possible so we can get moving again................but at the same time I am at the point of feeling as if I just can't do this again. The idea of starting over at the beginning overwhelms me. But this is our journey and at this time we are still moving forward, albeit slowly and in a different direction than we hoped.
I just want to make sense of it all. Maybe clarity comes with time.
But, that is where we are at for now.
Thank you for the kind comments on my post below, I truly appreciate them.
He called later on Thursday afternoon to talk with us about the loss. At this point, he has no idea why this happened. He said it could be three reasons - bad luck, chromosomal issues, or a third that he didn't want to get into and I am guessing is just plain bad eggs.
So we are supposed to get our blood karyotyping done. Me first, if mine is fine, then A. I am supposed to hear from the office on when they want me to get that done.
I want to do it as soon as possible so we can get moving again................but at the same time I am at the point of feeling as if I just can't do this again. The idea of starting over at the beginning overwhelms me. But this is our journey and at this time we are still moving forward, albeit slowly and in a different direction than we hoped.
I just want to make sense of it all. Maybe clarity comes with time.
But, that is where we are at for now.
Thank you for the kind comments on my post below, I truly appreciate them.
Good people make everything better
How true is the title of my blog today? Honestly, I don't know where I would be without my family and friends.
Needless to say, the last couple of days have been really difficult. I went to work yesterday because I figure, A) We need the money, and B) I can't sit home and ruminate on our loss, it's counterproductive and it won't make me feel better. It was a really hard day. My bosses are difficult to deal with on a good day, but on a bad day, such as yesterday, they are darn near impossible.
Anyway, made it through the day. I talked to my mom some more last night about our loss, cried about, and got irrationally upset because they told both my brothers. I don't know why. It's fine, I don't mind them knowing, but I was going to tell them. I feel like she overstepped and took my "news" away from me. But it was stupid. She probably explained better because I would have just sobbed through the conversation. I don't know. I told her and then profusely apologized because I felt bad for being like that.
My emotions as still kind of off.
Today was a pretty good day though. We woke up around the same time and just laid in bed, snuggled and laughed and picked on each other for a bit. It was nice to just be together like that. We got up and got ready a little bit earlier than normal. Went to the bank and then out for a hike. We did a trail along some bluffs on the Pa.cific Oce.an. We saw some really beautiful sights, water crashing in along the rocks, seagulls and pelicans flying on the air currents and diving into the water, ground squirrels and lizards running along the trail. It was a beautiful day and it was really nice to be outside just enjoying it.
Afterwards we went to a park and sat and read our books and then to a movie - Gho.sts of Girl.friends Pa.st. It was pretty amusing. Not the best movie ever, but served the purpose of taking our minds off what's been going on.
Tomorrow we plan on lazing around, making turkey and mashed potatoes and gravy for dinner and A is going to watch the Re.d Win.gs game @ 2. All in all makes for a pretty good weekend.
The best part though, the reason for the title of my post, is what was waiting for us when we returned home tonight. A vase of flowers from my parents, (beautiful, purple and pink with a butterfly) and some chocolates from our close friends, A & J and their new son B. It was a wonderful gesture and so very thoughtful of each to do that for us. I called each in turn and tearfully thanked them. It was truly the perfect end to today.
Needless to say, the last couple of days have been really difficult. I went to work yesterday because I figure, A) We need the money, and B) I can't sit home and ruminate on our loss, it's counterproductive and it won't make me feel better. It was a really hard day. My bosses are difficult to deal with on a good day, but on a bad day, such as yesterday, they are darn near impossible.
Anyway, made it through the day. I talked to my mom some more last night about our loss, cried about, and got irrationally upset because they told both my brothers. I don't know why. It's fine, I don't mind them knowing, but I was going to tell them. I feel like she overstepped and took my "news" away from me. But it was stupid. She probably explained better because I would have just sobbed through the conversation. I don't know. I told her and then profusely apologized because I felt bad for being like that.
My emotions as still kind of off.
Today was a pretty good day though. We woke up around the same time and just laid in bed, snuggled and laughed and picked on each other for a bit. It was nice to just be together like that. We got up and got ready a little bit earlier than normal. Went to the bank and then out for a hike. We did a trail along some bluffs on the Pa.cific Oce.an. We saw some really beautiful sights, water crashing in along the rocks, seagulls and pelicans flying on the air currents and diving into the water, ground squirrels and lizards running along the trail. It was a beautiful day and it was really nice to be outside just enjoying it.
Afterwards we went to a park and sat and read our books and then to a movie - Gho.sts of Girl.friends Pa.st. It was pretty amusing. Not the best movie ever, but served the purpose of taking our minds off what's been going on.
Tomorrow we plan on lazing around, making turkey and mashed potatoes and gravy for dinner and A is going to watch the Re.d Win.gs game @ 2. All in all makes for a pretty good weekend.
The best part though, the reason for the title of my post, is what was waiting for us when we returned home tonight. A vase of flowers from my parents, (beautiful, purple and pink with a butterfly) and some chocolates from our close friends, A & J and their new son B. It was a wonderful gesture and so very thoughtful of each to do that for us. I called each in turn and tearfully thanked them. It was truly the perfect end to today.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
IVF#1 Cancelled
So....yeah. I just don't even know what to say. I am beyond devestated.
I got the call from my nurse yesterday that we were on for 2:30pm today. We had to be there by 2. So we got up this morning, took all the necessary meds and got on the road around 8:50. Stopped, got breakfast and were headed down to the surgery center. About 15 minutes into our drive my phone rang. It was the RE's office. I called them right back and she said, J, I am really sorry to tell you this, but your Embryo Transfer (ET) is cancelled. I was like, What?!? She said, I am sorry, hon, your embryos stopped developing. The ET is cancelled. I said, Ok, in a really shaky voice and she asked if we were on our way already. I said, yeah. She said I am really sorry. Call me if you need to. The doctor will get in touch with you in about an hour (still hasn't and it's be about 4 now!! grr) and let you know what happened.
So that's where we are at right now. Our 5 embies died. It breaks my heart and scares me, because I don't know what is wrong or if it's fixable and we can try again.
I have cried a lot today. I am sure that won't change for a bit. But we will move forward, no matter what happens. We have each other.
I got the call from my nurse yesterday that we were on for 2:30pm today. We had to be there by 2. So we got up this morning, took all the necessary meds and got on the road around 8:50. Stopped, got breakfast and were headed down to the surgery center. About 15 minutes into our drive my phone rang. It was the RE's office. I called them right back and she said, J, I am really sorry to tell you this, but your Embryo Transfer (ET) is cancelled. I was like, What?!? She said, I am sorry, hon, your embryos stopped developing. The ET is cancelled. I said, Ok, in a really shaky voice and she asked if we were on our way already. I said, yeah. She said I am really sorry. Call me if you need to. The doctor will get in touch with you in about an hour (still hasn't and it's be about 4 now!! grr) and let you know what happened.
So that's where we are at right now. Our 5 embies died. It breaks my heart and scares me, because I don't know what is wrong or if it's fixable and we can try again.
I have cried a lot today. I am sure that won't change for a bit. But we will move forward, no matter what happens. We have each other.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
5 embryos!!
So I am bad, I didn't post with my big news yesterday, but we were out running the roads, picking up Mothers Day gifts, then we came home, watched House and went to bed.
So anyway, to go along with the title of my blog post today - I got the call from the RE yesterday at 11 and he said.....dun dun dun......5 of our 7 eggs fertilized naturally and we have 5 little embryos growing!! So, I didn't hear from him today, so I am assuming we are still growing pretty well and still aiming for a 4 or 5 day transfer on either Thurs or Fri.
I was kicking myself tonight, I was supposed to start my Estrace this morning and I totally missed it! Ugh! So I carried it upstairs in order to start taking it tonight. Bummed me out, first thing I have missed in this whole process. Hopefully it doesn't have any kind of detrimental effect.
But that's pretty much it for now. Obviously there are other things going on in my life, but none of them compare to this, so .....it's falling to the wayside in my blog for a bit. :-)
So anyway, to go along with the title of my blog post today - I got the call from the RE yesterday at 11 and he said.....dun dun dun......5 of our 7 eggs fertilized naturally and we have 5 little embryos growing!! So, I didn't hear from him today, so I am assuming we are still growing pretty well and still aiming for a 4 or 5 day transfer on either Thurs or Fri.
I was kicking myself tonight, I was supposed to start my Estrace this morning and I totally missed it! Ugh! So I carried it upstairs in order to start taking it tonight. Bummed me out, first thing I have missed in this whole process. Hopefully it doesn't have any kind of detrimental effect.
But that's pretty much it for now. Obviously there are other things going on in my life, but none of them compare to this, so .....it's falling to the wayside in my blog for a bit. :-)
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Back from ER
So my egg retrieval was today. We headed down south to the surgery center last night. Went out to dinner at Out.back Stea.khouse. It was pretty good. We haven't been there since we movied from MI. The steakhouses in our area are ok. They grill them, but smoke them too, which to me kind of overpowers the taste of the meat, but I digress.
So we got to the surgery center at 9:15, filled out the requisite paperwork and waited be called back. Once we got back there, I undressed from my street clothes and put on a gown and a pretty blue showercap. They took A away to donate his contribution, and while he was gone, they continued my prep - took my temp, blood pressure and got my IV started. That part kinda sucked. Didn't hurt that much because she numbed me each time, but it took three tries and my left hand has a large bruise because the vein blew.
Otherwise once that was started, the nurse anesthetist came back, asked me some questions and we were good to go. A made it back just in time to give me a kiss and they wheeled me back to my room. I got my meds started, nice buzz, chatted with the nurses in the room and that is all I remember until I woke up in recovery.
I was in quite a bit of pain and they gave me phen.tonol (sp??) to help. I got two doses of that and started feeling better. The RE came back told me that things went well and that we ended up with 7 eggs. As you know, I was a little depressed about that, but hopefully we get a good fertility report tomorrow (this lets us know how many were able to be fertilized and are now growing).
So wish me luck. I am going to eat a quick dinner and cash out for the night. I am super tired, it's been a long day.
So we got to the surgery center at 9:15, filled out the requisite paperwork and waited be called back. Once we got back there, I undressed from my street clothes and put on a gown and a pretty blue showercap. They took A away to donate his contribution, and while he was gone, they continued my prep - took my temp, blood pressure and got my IV started. That part kinda sucked. Didn't hurt that much because she numbed me each time, but it took three tries and my left hand has a large bruise because the vein blew.
Otherwise once that was started, the nurse anesthetist came back, asked me some questions and we were good to go. A made it back just in time to give me a kiss and they wheeled me back to my room. I got my meds started, nice buzz, chatted with the nurses in the room and that is all I remember until I woke up in recovery.
I was in quite a bit of pain and they gave me phen.tonol (sp??) to help. I got two doses of that and started feeling better. The RE came back told me that things went well and that we ended up with 7 eggs. As you know, I was a little depressed about that, but hopefully we get a good fertility report tomorrow (this lets us know how many were able to be fertilized and are now growing).
So wish me luck. I am going to eat a quick dinner and cash out for the night. I am super tired, it's been a long day.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Trigger tonight!!
Can I first say that I am an emotional wreck? I don't really want to get into ALL the reasons, because, well I just don't feel like typing that much tonight, but I am prone to bouts of crying and smiling. It's kinda crazy.
Anyway! I went to the RE yesterday for another scan. 9 measurable follies. All between 15 and 17. 3 more doses of Repronex at the appt, 3 more this moring and trigger tonight. Egg Retrieval (ER) is set for Sunday at 10:30a. I just booked our hotel for tomorrow night.
We are going to go see a movie w/friends around 7:30p tonight, then home to inject the HcG at 10:30p, have some fun adult time (hey, it was prescribed!) and then to bed. I am exhausted so I am looking forward to the bed part.
Otherwise, that's it for now. I will try to write more on Sun or Mon to update on ER.
Anyway! I went to the RE yesterday for another scan. 9 measurable follies. All between 15 and 17. 3 more doses of Repronex at the appt, 3 more this moring and trigger tonight. Egg Retrieval (ER) is set for Sunday at 10:30a. I just booked our hotel for tomorrow night.
We are going to go see a movie w/friends around 7:30p tonight, then home to inject the HcG at 10:30p, have some fun adult time (hey, it was prescribed!) and then to bed. I am exhausted so I am looking forward to the bed part.
Otherwise, that's it for now. I will try to write more on Sun or Mon to update on ER.
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