Oh happy day!

Ugh, what a day....... so today I was waiting for a phone call. Phone call was supposed to occur between the hours of 3 and 5 pm. Did not occur. I called instead, received a message that they were experiencing high call volumes and to try back later. Waited 15 min, tried again, same message. Tried again about 20 min later, office closed. So I got on their website and let them know.

During the end of this, A gets home and my mom calls. I ask if I can call her back and tell him I have no ideas for dinner because I was waiting for this phone call. He says, what do you want? I say I don't care, that I will eat cereal. Finish what I am working on, irritated at the whole situation, and call my mom back. As I am talking to her, A asks me again what I want for dinner, I again tell him I don't care, that I will have cereal (in a snippy voice) and ask my mom what she said. She tells me not to take out my irritation on him. Yes, I know this, but at this point I am not just irritated at the situation I AM irritated at him because I have already said I don't care what I eat/if I eat and he just can't make a decision on his own. I then tell her that I know, but I don't tell her how to talk to/treat Dad.

In an aside, since I have been married, this is one of my biggest pet peeves from my parents, the tips on how to and how to not treat my husband. They don't do it to my older brother, and we do not do it to them, so I don't really see where they get off sometimes. Especially because it's never about the nice things I do for him, how well I take care of him, it's about how I should be, that he is so good to me, and blah blah blah. Yes, I know he is good to me, he is great, but ya know what? He is not perfect, neither am I, but it works for us, this relationship.

Anyway, my mom tells me that she can let me go because she can tell I don't really want to talk. Okay, good idea, let's talk tomorrow. But I think that she is crying by the time we hang up, which makes me want to call her right now and check on her, but I really just don't want to talk on the phone.

Sigh... I know that was all over the place, but I was soo steamed for a few minutes that I was having some thoughts and needed to at least get this out.

so, yeah, there it is..........Happy Holidays.........
and Disney....off, there goes my happy trip
one good thing - interview tomorrow!

Cookies, cookies, COOKIES!!!

I baked!

I am also not the best picture taker, I realize and I just don't have time right now to fiddle with the layout. First pic is of my peanut butter cookies, 2nd and 3rd are Gingersnaps. Both taste really good.

Recipes if you are interested!!

Peanut Butter Cookies:

Ingredients
3/4 cup Creamy Peanut Butter
1/2 cup Shortening
1 1/4 cups firmly packed light brown sugar
3 Tablespoons milk
1 Tablespoon vanilla
1 egg
1 3/4 cups all-purpose flour
3/4 teaspoon salt
3/4 teaspoon baking soda

Directions
Preheat oven to 375ºF.
Place sheets of foil on countertop for cooling cookies.
Combine peanut butter, shortening, light brown sugar, milk and vanilla in large bowl.
Beat at medium speed until well blended.
Add egg. Beat just until blended.
Combine flour, salt and baking soda.
Add to creamed mixture at low speed. Mix just until blended.
Drop by heaping teaspoonfuls 2 inches apart onto ungreased baking sheet.
Flatten slightly in crisscross pattern with fork.
Bake at 375ºF for 7 to 8 minutes or until set and just beginning to brown.
Makes 3 dozen cookies

Gingersnap Cookies:

Ingredients

1 cup packed brown sugar
3/4 cup shortening
1/4 cup molasses
1 egg
21/4 cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking soda
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1 teaspoon ground ginger
1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
1/4 teaspoon salt

Directions

Heat oven to 375°F.

In large bowl, beat brown sugar, shortening, molasses and egg with electric mixer on medium speed, or mix with spoon.

Stir in remaining ingredients.
Shape dough by rounded tablespoonfuls into 1 1/2-inch balls.

Dip tops into granulated sugar.

On ungreased cookie sheet, place balls, sugared sides up, about 2 inches apart.
Bake 9 to 12 minutes or just until set.

Immediately remove from cookie sheet to cooling rack.

It's beginning to look at lot like......

RAIN!!!

Ugh, I really really need this to go away. We are planning on going to Disneyland this upcoming weekend, but I am not tromping around in the rain. Sigh...I really hope it clears up, this is one thing that I have been looking forward to lately. I really really want to see the Christmas decor.

Not much new otherwise, watching weather.com like crazy, wrapping gifts like it's going out of style, and tomorrow is the baking day. Keeping busy at home, actually liking being off, but getting a little anxious about a job. Would like to at least get a call for an interview. Some interest woudl be nice.

Happy 3rd Anniversary

Of TTC. That's right, we threw out the BCP's three years ago. We are starting our 4th year of TTC.

How did we get here? How can so much time have gone by without the one thing we want so much in the world? Will we ever be parents?

I wish I could put my emotions into words, but its hard, it would seem hopeless. Words like lost, unfulfilled, sad, tired, angry, pessimistic come to mind.

Don't get me wrong, I still see all that I have that's good, it's just hard to focus on it sometimes when dealing with IF.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!!

We are completely decorated! We go all out so it takes some time to get it all done. We do a Christmas village, other indoor decor, and a tree. I also put some stuff in the bathrooms (including a rug and curtain in the upstairs bathroom), so today I cleaned the shower and put up the curtain in order to finish everything off. We did most indoors Saturday, the outdoors Sun, and like I said, I finished up today.

Went in today and took a proficiency exam for a part time position. Hopefully I will get a call to come in and interview. And silly me, I read my EDD documentation wrong, the phone call isn't until next week.

Tonights dinner was delish! We had bbq chicken pizza, one of our fave spins on pizza. Now I am sitting drinking a beer waiting to watch House. I am tired too, it's been a long day, so I am about ready to crash.....lol, at 7:30pm!!

Otherwise, I (I know I am probably jinxing myself) am having the longest cycle I ever remember having. Today is CD30. I am always a 25-26 day cycler. Not that I am complaining, but it's weird when something you plan on doesn't happen.

Well that's about it in my boring life.....................

It's that time of the year

First off, Happy Belated Thanksgiving!! We had a wonderful day yesterday. Although we missed family, one of our good friends, J, invited us to her aunts house to Thanksgiving dinner. Her family was so welcoming and kind, and the dinner was completely tradtional, just like I was hoping. Afterwards she and I got ready and went out to a local bar and just chilled with some drinks. It was a good time

I woke up this morning with a wine headache. Guess that's what you get when you drink almost a whole bottle of wine yourself throughout an afternoon. *blush*

We went out shopping tonight. Got 2 deer for our front "lawn" and some gifts that we wanted to pick up for family and friends.

When I got home I got some paperwork from EDD for my unemployment claim. I am so nervous for some reason. I realize that by quitting I don't just deserve unemployment, but the way it happened, which I don't really want to go into here, is more than enough reason to apply. So hopefully it comes through for us, it would be greatly appreciated and I would be beyond grateful. This is a rough time of the year to have no income and a bad state to live in on just one income.

I am so tired from my lack of sleep last night, so I am turning in, big day tomorrow, we are going to decorate the house, yay!! Night night!

Disneyland!!

Yes, it will be our third time there in little over a year, but whatever!! I want to see the Christmas decor and spend some time at the "happiest place on Earth"! So off we go, we are booked for a weekend in December and I can't wait.
We almost opted not to go because of my work situation, or lack thereof, but we have some travel money saved up so we are going to splurge and do it anyway. Yay!