Busy weekend

Happy Thanksgiving and all that jazz. It's a little late, but I am writing!

Although we were away from family for Thanksgiving again, we had a nice one. A and I made a turkey, stuffing, mashed potates and gravy, corn, sweet potatoes, etc, etc. It was really good. We ate around 4:30 then relaxed and watched The Incredibles. Pretty good movie, I hadn't seen it before.

On Friday I (unfortunately) had to go into work for a bit to do Payroll and such. Then A and I relaxed for a bit and then went shoppingat Kohl's and Michaels. We have most of our Christmas shopping done for our families, just have to pack it up and ship it. So happy about that!

On Saturday we started decorating the house inside and then went out to dinner and had a beer at a local bar. Today we finished the tree and decorated the outside. Went to Target and got a price adjustment on one of ours gifts and then ran to Walmart to exchange something that didn't work and got some pop and water, which we needed.

Here are some pics of our place w/Christmas decor. :-)

As for the infertility, as I mentioned in the last post, we will continue to try on our own (which we have, with me mentally coaching us on) and proceed further in Feb when we are done with the holidays and our cruise. I am sure the time will go faster than I expect or so I hope.

I just thought of something, I should have taken a pic of my turkey and my pie for this. Oh well, maybe next time.

Monday news

So we went to see the doctor today and talk with him about what we discussed on the phone. He went more into detail, but mostly told me what we had talked about earlier. I was glad that A was there so he could hear what the doc had to say. A wants me to start taking aspirin and see if that helps in the meantime and would like to start w/IUI if anything. I was thinking that too, but at the same time I am feeling like if we are going to do it, we should just do it. I don't know, because at the same time I don't know what I will do IF it doesn't work. The doc thinks I am thinking wrong, but I wouldn't during it, I would think... this is it, this is going to work, etc etc, but what IF it doesn't? I don't know if I could handle it. It's a really scary prospect.

So obviously we will need to discuss more and we will because we won't ever do either until February at the earliest, which right now seems SO FAR AWAY, but I know that we are in the middle of a cycle right now, around Christmas should be the middle of another and then it will January and we will be thinking about our cruise, which starts on the 23rd. So we just try on our own. Maybe, just maybe it will happen. Wouldn't that be the BEST Christmas gift ever?

Work is the same ol same ol. Sucks. Getting hard to go in everyday. So boring and monotonous. And my male boss and I are not getting along all that great anymore and his kids are even annoying me sometimes. I need a break. This cruise can't come fast enough. :-)
I think it's a combo of the holidays and this IF stress that is causing it, but it's difficult right now.
I am going to go though and try to do some research before bed.

life goes on..

This is going to be a short one.
I made an appt with the doctor today for A and I to go in and talk to him this upcoming Monday.
I think we have kinda made the decision not to start much until Feb after we return from our cruise. Probably the best idea, and it gives a chance to save up some more money in order to do.. something.
I am tired lately. I have been going to bed later (for me) around 10:30 or so and I am really feeling the difference.
We cleaned the house tonight, so that makes me feel better.
We went to a friends party on Saturday night, we had a blast.
Talking about having a Christmas party like we used to back in MI, but I haven't quite decided yet.
Bouncing around from subject to subject I know, but I just wanted to check in real quick and post something, but I feel like I still don't have much to say.
I think a lot and I am trying to keep track of any questions I think of for the doc, but otherwise, just living life day to day. Nothing has really changed I guess............

lost..........

Why is one sometimes surprised by something that they have been expecting to happen for months? I got a call from the doc today. He said that my results from my biopsy came back fine (so that is good, as he said - I have velcro, so my fertilized egg will stick to and implant in my uterus), but based on my clotting test (remember the 4 issues I had?) and the fact that I have endometriosis, I will have to have either an IUI or IVF to get pregnant. I know I am glossing over things right now. I am still in shock. Silly me huh? I should have expected this I know, but I think you always hope that everything will be okay. Anyway, he actually recommends moving onto IVF because he thinks I will have a better chance with that. It breaks my heart. Obviously I know that I am not the only person going through this and I am alive and healthy otherwise, but I feel broken. Aptly put I think. That's about it for tonight. I just can't think of anything else I don't really know what else to say.

Tired

Oh so tired. I am ready to go to bed and it's only 8:36 as I begin typing. This could partly be because of the 22 oz of beer that I had with a heavy dinner. Yeah that is probably it.

I have gotten into Facebook quite a bit lately. I check it at work a few times a day and again at night before I go to bed. The funny thing is, it's not even that exciting. I think one of the reasons that I check it at work is because the Nest is too time-consuming and I have been busy lately and it's quick to get on, check how things are, and sign back out. Anyway, I have a couple of applications going - MyFarm, MobWars, LilGreen Patch, and now YoVille. So it's fun to check those. I like MyFarm the best though.

Another interesting topic - yesterday was Election Day. I voted for Barack Obama, A voted for John McCain. Obama ended up winning the election - he is now the President Elect. He will be sworn into office in January. Hopefully he does the best job that he can do and help to turn this country around. I am not big into politics, not good at arguing or stating my opinion, as I don't really feel that I have much information to base it off of, but I think (crossing my fingers here) that this will be a good thing for our great nation.

Onto cycle news as always (seeing as how I use this blog to chart where I am and what we are doing doctor wise, it makes sense), I am on CD 22. I don't really have any syptoms (for the impending flow or the potential baby) so as of now I am holding out hope. Yeah I know, like normal huh? I should be hearing about my test results sometime soon I hope, so that should at least give us an idea of where to go if nothing else. I hate thinking and or talking about my cycles, as I feel like I jinx myself every month, but I have to be lucky sometime one would think.
My mom went to see my old OB/GYN the other day (we went to the same one) and mentioned to her where we are at and she said that she hopes it happens for us soon. I know this sounds strange to a lot of people, but I liked her a lot and I miss her as a doctor. I felt like she understood me and had my best interests at heart and wasn't shooting into the dark, she seemed like she always had a plan. Plus I trusted her. I wish I could have been able to go to her and tell her I was pregnant and have her deliver my baby. She preformed surgery on my mom and me and she was just wonderful. hmmm, someday huh? Well not someday she will deliver the baby, seeing as how we live 2500 miles away now, but maybe someday a baby.

Only 2 more days of work then I get to go to Hallmark. I am excited. Tonight we stopped at Walmart so I could pick up some things to send to my little brother as a care package. He should be pretty excited to receive it. A thought it was a good idea, so we bought some Mac n Cheese, some soup, Cheetos, Pringles, Sour Patch Kids, muffin mix, 3 little candles and some body wash. Hopefully he likes it and it helps him save a little bit of money for himself.

Well, like I said, I am totally exhausted. I am going to head to bed to read a bit and then crash. Nighty night!

Bad blogger

So I have gotten really bad at this blogging thing lately. We have been busy and I just got over a horrible sickness. These are my excuses :-).

Since the last post - that day I started a new cycle (not 6 days or more like the doc suspected, but 1.5 days after the procedure, lucky me). It was a really heavy, crazy heavy flow, but it only lasted about 4 days (ahh the joys of medicine), which hasn't been common since I was on the pill (now almost two years ago). Other than that I have had a pretty normal cycle, some spotting starting while we were at Disney and ending when I had that weird stomach bug. I am crossing my fingers for this month (like usual), but we will see.

The election is ALMOST OVER! Two more days. I am so completely happy. Hopefully things die down - obviously we will discuss the new president and what they do right or wrong, but we won't have to listen to people trying to sell themselves and put down others as much. Sigh, it will be so nice.

Christmas is coming! Only about 53 more days! I can't wait. It's the same every year. It's my favorite holiday. We have started shopping a little bit. Just a few things here and there for people. Hopefully we won't have to pick up anything last minute. Cross your fingers.....

So as I said we have been busy lately. Two weekends ago we bought new car. A 2009 Saturn Aura. I like it quite a bit. It took me a few days though, I loved our Vue and was sad to have to turn it in. But it's turned out okay.
Last weekend we had our trip to Disney. It was so much fun! We had a blast. Went down to Anaheim on Friday night after work, went to Disneyland on Saturday, and then California Adventure on Sunday and drove home Sunday night. I wish we could go back already. It was decorated great for Halloween too. I love Disney. :-)
On Tuesday after returning A woke up feeling kinda sick, but soon felt better. I went to work and as the day wore on I started feeling HORRIBLE. It got worse and worse and close to 1pm I went home. Proceeded to lose my food in the two ways possible :-( for the next 2 days. Finally went back to work on Friday morning. It was the worst I felt in a long long time. And I hope not to feel that way again soon. Funny thing is --- girl barfing = girl pregnant --- everyone was asking if I was pregnant or not. How I wish it was that easy...........

We had a good weekend this weekend. Went shopping at Target and Kohl's yesterday and then had pizza and a movie at home, and then today I got up early and started dinner in the crock pot - beef stew, and made some bread for dinner. We did laundry and a little shopping again, Old Navy, BB&B, CostPlus, and Trader Joes. Then came home, undecorated from Halloween, had dinner and relaxed.
It was nice.

Tomorrow it's back to the grind. I am going to bed early tonight to catch up. We gained an hour today, but I didn't get any extra sleep so I am tired from a busy day. Can't wait until next Saturday. It's the Hallmark open house. I always get all my Christmas cards and some cute stuff from the store. It kinda makes me sad too, my mom and I used to always do that together. I miss spending time with her, especially on "our" days.
Love you Mom.