oh the weekend

So I spoke w/one of my friends online last night. He helped me to put things in a little bit more perspective. We were talking about kids and what A and I might have to do to get pregnant and he said that he understands that the cost is a big denominator in our decision on whether we go forward or not, but he said that no matter what he would do whatever he could for his baby. He would pay any amount of money and do whatever it took for her. I realize this, but its great to hear from him, a semi-new dad, talk about how much he loves this daughter that he has and how much she means to him. It made me sad 'cause I want that so badly. I cried while I was chatting w/him, but it was okay. He also told me that he knows I will be a great mom. That was nice to hear, I just hope I get a chance to do it.

I have had a sore throat for the last week, and now my sinuses are draining which is aggravating my throat. It's annoying. I need it to clear up in the next 1.5 weeks because ................. we are leaving for our cruise in................. 10 days!!!!!!!! I cannot wait to see my mom and dad. And I am getting excited about the cruise itself too. And the fact that I will have 11 days STRAIGHT off of work. Ahh bliss.

And I have been talking to my best friend recently. Her and her husband and talking about coming out here in April to visit. They want to go to two different theme parks. Fine by me, but we also talked about starting more treatment at the end of February, so hopefully HOPEFULLY I will be pregnant by April. I would go and hang out, but I would NOT do anything to harm a potential baby. Especially after we have been waiting so long. So there's that. We could still have a good visit. I am sure they would understand. Actually I am not sure, but I really don't care. This is about me and A and we have been at it for two years now. It is our time. It needs to be!

I am really tired, I think it's because I haven't been feeling good. I wanted to update though. I think I am either going to curl up w/a good book or watch one of our zillion movies tonight. That sounds good to me. Ya know what's missing? A nice fire to sit in front of. Oh well, I will snuggle one of my kitties. They are nice and warm. Speaking of warm I just need to share - it was 70 degrees today. On January 10th! Crazy! It's supposed to be closer to 80 tomorrow. Makes me remember what I like about California.

Later!