Oh happy day!

Ugh, what a day....... so today I was waiting for a phone call. Phone call was supposed to occur between the hours of 3 and 5 pm. Did not occur. I called instead, received a message that they were experiencing high call volumes and to try back later. Waited 15 min, tried again, same message. Tried again about 20 min later, office closed. So I got on their website and let them know.

During the end of this, A gets home and my mom calls. I ask if I can call her back and tell him I have no ideas for dinner because I was waiting for this phone call. He says, what do you want? I say I don't care, that I will eat cereal. Finish what I am working on, irritated at the whole situation, and call my mom back. As I am talking to her, A asks me again what I want for dinner, I again tell him I don't care, that I will have cereal (in a snippy voice) and ask my mom what she said. She tells me not to take out my irritation on him. Yes, I know this, but at this point I am not just irritated at the situation I AM irritated at him because I have already said I don't care what I eat/if I eat and he just can't make a decision on his own. I then tell her that I know, but I don't tell her how to talk to/treat Dad.

In an aside, since I have been married, this is one of my biggest pet peeves from my parents, the tips on how to and how to not treat my husband. They don't do it to my older brother, and we do not do it to them, so I don't really see where they get off sometimes. Especially because it's never about the nice things I do for him, how well I take care of him, it's about how I should be, that he is so good to me, and blah blah blah. Yes, I know he is good to me, he is great, but ya know what? He is not perfect, neither am I, but it works for us, this relationship.

Anyway, my mom tells me that she can let me go because she can tell I don't really want to talk. Okay, good idea, let's talk tomorrow. But I think that she is crying by the time we hang up, which makes me want to call her right now and check on her, but I really just don't want to talk on the phone.

Sigh... I know that was all over the place, but I was soo steamed for a few minutes that I was having some thoughts and needed to at least get this out.

so, yeah, there it is..........Happy Holidays.........
and Disney....off, there goes my happy trip
one good thing - interview tomorrow!

Life sucks

That encompasses everything right? I understand, life isn't fair, but my blog is my place to bitch right? So I was flying high today, I thought I had a good interview (though again - I don't know why I always have to explain myself or my understanding further, but! - I do realize my "good interview' doesn't mean that someone wasn't better) and I was in a good mood, thinking about leaving my job, getting BENEFITS, PAID HOLIDAYS, AND PAID VACATION (if you can't tell these are things I do NOT have at my current, "professional", 40 hour a week job), and then this afternoon I made the mistake of checking my email.
Sorry, it says, thanks for coming in and interviewing, but........... you SUCK! We picked someone else. And not 10 minutes later, I get an email from another job I applied for saying, Thanks for sending your resume, but you SUCK, and there were lots better applicants so you aren't invited for an interview. Have a nice day.

So, there's that. No new job.

I just want to catch a break ya know? I feel like we made a mistake moving out here. I miss our families.
And on top of all that...........
My job sucks
I can't find a new one
We can't get pregnant
I don't really like the townhouse complex where we live
Etc, blah, etc, etc, blah........

Really, generally, I am a happy person. I am sure you can't tell by my blog, but it's true.
Right now I am self-medicating with a bottle of wine.
Things will get better right? There has to be some sunny sky behind all these clouds.

So anyway, maybe if I go to bed things will be rosier in the morning light. We will see...night all. Thanks for reading if you made it through my pity party!

Wish me luck!

I have my interview with the school district tomorrow morning. I am stressing right now. I don't have a portoflio or anything to carry extra copies of my resume and a pad of paper in. I didn't have one at my last two professional interviews, but for some reason I feel like I need one for this interview. I just really want this job. For two reasons, I need to do something new. I am beyond bored at my current job and because I am so unhappy at my current job. My bosses are very difficult to work for and stress me on a daily basis (which as "everyone" says, isn't good for TTC. I know that we have other issues, but it's good to use as an excuse).

Anyway, so pray for me tomorrow around 9:10am PST. Thanks!

Been busy tonight otherwise....pruned some of my plants, cleaned off the front porch, cut A's hair, and....drank a beer. :) I think I am going to bed soon though. It's super early still, not even 8 yet, but I was exhausted and foggy feeling at work today and I want to be on the ball for this interview tomorrow. And I am tired! I need sleep! Right? Right!

Thanks to all the girls on the nest for the list of blogs they gave me today. It will give me something new to read. I appreciate it.

Alright, check list....pants ironed, shirt ironed, both hanging for tomorrow, alarm set, going to try and make myself look pretty......oo need to print off resume and then sleep..........check check.....zzzzzz

Okay, I am off. Night!